At last it's light..........

It was quiet...it was dark...he was still there..standing by the window..all alone for hours together. It was not what he thought it would be. It wasn't creepy either. He was there..alive,alert,aware..totally in that moment! He started wondering why he was not feeling lonely, why he was not feeling scared, why he was not feeling disturbed..suddenly he realised something had stopped bothering him all at once. The fight started again. What was it? What had stopped bothering him?

He started speaking but not in the manner he had been doing it so far. There were no words. There was no audience and there was no form of speech. It was only the awareness that he was speaking in order to seek an answer. The answer which he could only see, feel and laugh at! The answer too simple to be framed in words! He knew that the most difficult thing in life is to find the simple truth. But he had no other choice but to find it. He had awfully escaped it enough only to realize that it was too real to escape!

The struggle was intensely fought. The journey was a long one. But what really made it an experience of life for him was the fact that the war was not with the outer world,it was indeed with the inner world...the war between 'be' and 'become'. He took that journey making an erroneous assumption that the distance was very short, the distance of only four letters. Alas! He was proved wrong.There was no distance! He was so oblivious to it that he had to glorify it as an 'inflexion point' in life! What a misery it is to be so dishonest with yourself!

He has finally arrived here. He doesn't know if it is an ultimate joy of self-assurance or an indifference arising out of clean emptiness of mind and heart! But he does know one thing that he is happy now..much different from others, not because he has got what it takes to make someone 'happy' if you were only to define 'happiness' to adorn it. In fact, the opposite is true. He is standing on the last point of the line. The line is complete, he has nothing now....

He is fundamentally incapable of becoming anything now. He has found himself...all of it! He is too small to allow any 'become'. There can never be any 'become'. He is just himself! The journey ends finally..which probably never existed!

DEEPALI S. BASUR
Co-founder & Chief Editor,
www.ethinksharp.com, an e-magazine dedicated to the 'YOUTH'.